BEHS 126 – Muffin

Letting go is one of the hardest parts of rescue. Unfortunately there are so many of us out there that know this first hand.Muffin came to BEHS Oct. 2nd along with 4 others including Trinket. They were the last 5 remaining starved ones after 2 others from their pasture were rescued the week before. So many babies unloved and unwanted until someone made a call to BEHS. It was such a short amount of time for Muffin to be loved but I loved her anyway. When the five were brought in she was the last to be spoken for but I didn’t care she was my pick of them all. She knew right off that she liked these new people that came to get her and followed me everywhere I walked in the pasture with her. I’d stop, scratch her head, love a minute and she’d sigh and we’d both walk on. A little habit we both fell into right away. Visions of what a lovely awesome mare she would one day be were already flowing through my mind.It was a Sunday afternoon when Trinket got so sick and we lost her the next day. I was so sad and heart broken that she didn’t make it. 8 days later I came home to find my Muffin in her forever sleep and gone from me. I guess Trinket was lonely without her. I know it is not for me to question why but to try to accept the things we can’t change but one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life was to say goodbye to 2 babies so soon.It’s been 2 weeks since she left and I thought I was ready to write this but the tears still flow. It was the first time in my 5 years with rescue I thought of quitting BUT without us there would be so many more Muffin’s and Trinkets that won’t make it. In the end it has given me a renewed determination to do my best to ensure that there will come a day when no horse suffers neglect again.I know it wasn’t but a few short weeks that you were safe and fed but Muffin and Trinket you were loved, loved by me and so many good people you never got to meet.